The Cry Of My Heart

2011-01-07T03:18:00.002+08:00

oh bloggie, i miss you. tapi aku tak tau nak write pasal aper. but tiday is exceptional. hahaha! i decided to write. walaupun aku tak tau what to write. results on monday, 10.01.11. very the scared tau aku. walau walau walau! hahaha! im very the scared. ya allah please let me pass. let me get 10 points, or 12 at least. i miss my baby. hahahaha! ok thats very random. but really, i miss lah. hais. i nak confess. haha this is very random believe me. dalam banyakbanyak mat rep, i cumer like satu jer. i like thaqif. hahhaha! suara sedap dok! like seriously seh. okok i like the voice more actually. heehee no offence its my opinion aje. bloggie have told you that i miss you? well, i really do. i just don't know what to write aje. sorry to abandon you. heehee. poly open house on the 6 to 8 jan. yesterday, 06.01.11, i went to NYP open house. today to RP. i'd listed down all the courses that i wanted to join from every poly. including TP. walaupun jauh. BP to TP jauh seh to. haha tapi these are only my choices jer. in total, i got 25 courses that i wanna join. banyak ehk. you know nevermind. hahahha! this post is full of my randomness and my crapiness. i dont even think first before i typed this all down. heehee. this shows that i am spontaneious. hope i spell it correctly. haha! dah lama tak blajar english kan. heehee. wah wah wah very random hor! haiyo what to do? i very the bored now. baby i dah sleep. besok he work. hahaha i just remember stg. i hope my abang tak read my blog anymore. hahahaha! okk bloggie byebye :)

2010-12-08T10:20:00.003+08:00

TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY! YIPPEE! IM FINALLY 17, THANK GOD! WHY ALL CAPS? HAHAHA! ITS BECAUSE TODAY IS MY DAY & I WANNA BE A BIT DIFFERENT. HEEHEE! WHATS MY DREAMS? HAHA I HAVENT WISH FOR ANYTHING YET. MAYBE LATER. I THINK. OKAY THATS ALL FOR TODAY. & HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY TO ME! WOOHOO!!

2010-11-05T03:30:00.002+08:00

when a girl is quiet, million of things are running in her mind. when a girl is not arguing, she is thinking deeply. when a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions, she is wondering how long you will be around. when a girl answers "im fine" after a few seconds, she is not even close to fine. when a girl stares at you, she is wondering why you are lying. when a girl lays in your chest, she is wishing you to be hers forever. when a girl wants to see you everyday, she wants to be pampered. when a girl says "i love you", she means it. when a girl says "i miss you", no one in this world can miss you more than that. life only comes around once, make sure you spend it with the right person. wait for the guy who kisses your forehead. who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats. who holds your hand in front of his friends. who constantly reminds you how much he cares about you & how lucky he is to have you. who turns to his friends & say "that's her!"

2010-10-27T21:25:00.003+08:00

when a person cries and the first drop of tears come from the right eye, it's from happiness. But when the first roll is from the left, it is pain. - Psychological Fact

2010-10-27T21:22:00.002+08:00

when you dream of somebody you know when you're asleep, it means that the person is missing you -Psychology Fact

2010-10-25T19:55:00.003+08:00

what is wrong with you? why do you still bother about me? i thought you hate me? why do you still view my FB profile anyway? if you're reading this, i want you to know that i am really sorry if i had hurt you in any way. i just don't understand. you said that you're understanding. you said that you understand the situation i am in now. but what with the sudden avoidance? you avoided me, you stopped texting me, & you're angry with me. i don't understand you at all. now you're bitching about me to my & your friend behind my back? what, you think i will never know is it? what is wrong with you?! what didi do wrong ? tell me dammit! tell me if i did something wrong. tell me if i hurt you. at least i can get this things right. at least i know what is wrong with you, sulking like that. i did'nt ask you to wait. you wanted to remember. i didn't ask you to top up for me. you did it out of your free will remember? if i said i like you, i like you as a friend. & never said i like you more than that did i? the answer is, NO! i didn't ask you to do soomething that will hurt you did i? NO! you're the one who willingly volunteered to do all those things right? HELL YEAH! so stop what you're doing & face the truth! cause that's what i'm doing right now you ass! you really make me angry you know, you really really makes me angry. so who the hell cares if i curse?! cause i bloody dont care what the fuck people will say. its my blog anyway. so if you're not happy, fuck off!

2010-10-21T23:08:00.002+08:00

today's practical was heart breaking. it's not that i can't do it, but it really makes me sad. you see, i started to do physics before chemistry. i made a small mistake just when the practical starts & i worry like hell. i called for the invigilator for help, & she told me to try to relax. i managed to calm myself down & continue with the practical. next i have to do the graph & i made another mistake. i was confuse with the axes & later i was told that my answer was wrong when i discussed it with my friends when we were being quarantined. i moved on to doing chemistry then after im done with physics. this is the part where i was so depressed on when the practical is over. firstly, i wrote my answers in pencil as i'm scared that when i wrote in pen, i might dirtied the paper when im correctong my answers. so, i wrote all my answers in pencil. i was doing it very slowly as i am trying to get my senses correct. btw i got nose-block today & i was still not feeling well from yesterday's fever, so i could not smell any pungent smell when everybody can! just when i'd checked my answers & reaching for my pen to re-write all my answers, the invigilator told us to stop writing & put our pens down. therefore, i ended up handing in my script with answers written in pencil. after the practical, we were quarantined. i could not talk for a while as i was holding back my tears. at last i could not control it any longer & i just let them spill. nobody knew & saw me cry except for my two dearest & closest friends where i was sitting between them.

2010-10-08T18:04:00.002+08:00

Q:what are your top three fears? 1)height 2)fall 3)pain.

2010-10-07T17:47:00.003+08:00

Q:if there's one thing that you needed most when you're upset, what will that thing be and why? A:that thing will be a hug. i don't know why but to me, this somehow cools me down. i'm a very emotional person, but i don't like to show them. so every time when i'm sad or angry or whatever, i really need at least a hug to cheers me up. i am not desperate or something, FYI *roll eyes*, it's just a norm to me. by the way, i am tired of hugging my pillow everyday.

2010-07-27T22:54:00.002+08:00

it has been nearly a month since the last time i post. i am actually lazy to on the laptop. im sorry for my english mistakes today. i can assure you that there will be a lot of errors on my english for this post. anyways, i've been thinking. why do some guys do things that they don't sometimes dont mean them. i really have to stop comparing real guys with guys from books i read. of course guys from books are perfect because they're fiction. anyways my best friend have a boyfriend and i just know about it today. maybe she forgot to tell me. or maybe they just got together today. i dont know. i wanted to ask her for details but she was tired and sleepy. so i decided not to bug her and will ask her next time. it is so hard to meet her now. with her currently in poly & i with my o levels are near. ony left with less than hundred days to prepare now. oh my god i am feeling so depressed right now. i really need to be hugged really badly now. im not gonna cry, dont worry. im just tired i think. by the way, i read my friend's blog just now and was pissed off with what he wrote. how can he say things like that to people who are once his friends. "puny feeble minds"? what a fucking asshole dickhead! he said more bad things than that actually but i just dont remember what. i dont wanna remember even. they only pollute my mind more. i dont want any of my system to be polluted. at all. but thats impossible, i know. anyways anyways, my big brother want me to help him make my marshmellow choco bars for his girl friend. i said i would help him only if he do most of the work of course. because he will say that he made the choco bars himself. that's why, instead of lying to his lady, i rather let him do most of the work & let him telling the truth. dammit very much i still need a hug. i thought it will soon vanish & disappear but no. i'll go to school tomorrow, since the cramp i had had this morning is no more. goodnight now & sweet drems to you ;)

2010-06-30T20:30:00.002+08:00

hey hey hey! guess what. i think my hibernating season is here. FYI i have had my hibernating season or so i call it since a few years ago. it is basically about me getting tired all the time & also sleepy all the time. usually i dont care where i was as long as i get to sleep for a while. but not on the bus, unless i have company. of course the reason is because i dont want to end up being woken up by the bus driver somewhere at the General Hospital. that will be so weird and embarrasing. anyways D&T project is bugging me. im having nightmares about the project every night. haha i dont mean it literally. im just kidding. only its not funny but lame. that reminds me of my friend Omai. instead of saying "lame", she will instead say "glee". hahahaha. ok now im going off cause my big brother is bugging me right now. he can be irritating at times. haha no offence abang if you happen to read this. ok-k that's all im going to study for a bit then prepare to set off to my la-la-land, with lots of taylor lautner. im a sleepyhead now, hee.

2010-06-22T13:28:00.004+08:00

i was listening to some music from my big brother's ipod when i thought, "isn't it sweet for a guy to write songs for a girl?". songs like right here waiting - richard marx or o-town - all or nothing or ryan cabrera - true. listen to the lyrics then you'll know what i mean. then i was thinking again if there is someone-out-there-who-is-still-hiding-&-i-still-can't-find-him who will write songs about me. isn't that romantic? haha. especially when the songs are written with honesty & sincerely. & the writer meant what they wrote. anyways, i've been super sensitive these few days. i cry easily. i know that i'm a cry-baby. but i wont cry without having reason & i will usually try to control my tears every time i'm on the verge to cry. i don't know what's happening to me. i will cry everytime i encounter with something sad. i cry when listening to songs, when i read books even watching movie. normally movies don't make me cry, except for the movie titanic. hey don't blame it on me, that movie is very sad & it's my favourite movie so far. maybe i know the reason why i'm feeling this way. it's a girl thing. monthly. or is it because i'm finally growing up to be more mature than i am now? who knows & who cares? me, of course i care cause its me i'm talking about. anyways anyways, i didn't talk much too for these few days. i'd stay away from my family. not totally of course. yesterday i finally start to talk to them. i kept blabbering & rambling. i asked them questions but before they answer, i answered my own questions. i became a chatterbox! i have to worry bout that later. but now i need to get some hot tea with extra sugar & honey. yumyum! or maybe i'll make some homemade lime juice? hmm. i think i'll stick to my tea. ok now you see what i'm talking about answering my own question? i even say out loud about everything that i'm thinking. oh yeah i'm going to library later on to borrow books hopefully. i'm addicted to reading books i think. i've read every books that i could find in my house. even my mom's cook book. even my baby brother's learning-to-read book that is the lion & the mouse. & also my big brother's fashion magazine for men. of course newspapers. can't miss them. have to read them everyday. now i really need that tea. adieu! i'm a chatterbox! am i suppose to worry? hmm.

2010-05-25T20:13:00.006+08:00

my mother do an unexpected thing to me. i was reading my book & minding my own business when she came into my room & hit me with a clothes hanger. what i did wrong? i don't know. i didn't misbehave or talk rudely. in fact, i didn't even talk unnessarily these few days at home. that's why when she hit me, i reacted rudely. hais. now my some parts of my arms are covered with bruises . i really don't know her now. is she really my mother? sometimes, she said things that are unrelevent. after hitting me, she ordered me to clean the kitchen. i sat up & mumbled to myself, "nobody use the kitchen, why do?" then my mother stormed into the room & said, "what i didn't do?! are you saying i'm lazy?! if i'm lazy, i won't go to work! you think only you in this house are tired?! don't you dare be rude to me! go clean the kitchen now!" URGH!! i really do don't understand my mother. she wants people to understand her & that's what i'm trying my best to do. like just now, she asked my brother to turn off the tap. then i said that that the tap is already off. i was helping her & yet she misunderstands me & said, "i'm not talking to you! don't act like you're so good!" see my point? i really don't understand her now. & it really upsets me. a lot. if only things were different .

2010-05-20T21:23:00.007+08:00

ok so now your stories have my name in them . that's nice . so now im the despo one ? haha that's nice . NOT ! people only hear the ones from you . and not from me yet . so i guess they have'nt know yet how you are . but i'm not going to tell anyone . cause i've made my promise , & i never break my promises . however , i happened to break one of my promises that i've made to you . & i know you don't care . but so what ? i don't ask you to care , & will ever not . you're an A-hole . what else are you going to tell people about me ? what else B ! you told people about me being despo . you know what ? you're so sweet . you're an A-hole . you're a super-duper-mighty-big-time A-hole . & i hate you . that's right baby , i hate you . a lot . cause that's what you want from me isn't it . well then , you've got it . let me say something ; Congratulations, I Hate You ! i wish i could slap you hard !

2010-05-19T20:51:00.015+08:00

you're acting like as if you're the most perfect person on earth . so what if people you know likes you ? i don't care . for your infomation , i don't like you . a lot . don't pin-point other people's flaws and/or mistakes . don't make face to my friends when you don't like what they said . don't go around gossiping to people about those you don't like . don't act like you're very good looking . cause you're only acceptable . look at yourself first before you say anything . before you make any comment . before you start to gossip . are you that bored until you have to start making up stories & gossip ? do you think that you are so perfect ? i don't think so . if you are , you won't be as cruel as this . you won't hurt people's feelings . you won't make you bitchy face that i tend to slap everytime i see you're making them . you won't laugh at people . you won't gossip about people who you regard as "friends" . stop your two-face & be straight forward . don't be a coward & say bad things about people . if you think you're so great , try saying all that in front of those people . you are such a B . i am sorry my dear friend . i could'nt tell you yet .

2010-05-02T18:39:00.006+08:00

it only takes a minute to get a crush on someone .

it only takes an hour to like someone .

& it only takes a day to love someone .

but it takes a lifetime to forget someone .

if someone said that they have already forgotten their past love ,

they lie .

someone have to lie in order to forget .

it does'nt matter anymore .

2010-04-16T10:22:00.009+08:00

-Text Message-

Boy: hey i got a question to ask you .

Girl: ok what ?

Boy: it's just a random question & don't think too much about it .

Girl: haha ok. what is it ?

Boy: ok let's say you fall in love with this one guy & you did not tell him. Then one day, he told you that he got a girlfriend. What will you do & what will you react ?

Girl: i will cry. But not in front of him of course. Then maybe i will not talk to him for a while till i'm feeling better. & i will wait for him no matter what. & lastly, i will always be there when he's down.

Boy: oh, will you tell him that you love him ?

Girl: no .

Boy: why not ?

Girl: cause i don't want to be heartbroken again.

Boy: ok .

Girl: what about you? what will you do & how will you react ?

Boy: i will do the same thing as you ?

Girl: you will cry ?

Boy: LOL. i will wait for her & i'll be there for her always.

& since then, the girl falls for the guy & she waits on him .

i like blue because of you .

2009-10-12T16:41:00.003+08:00

N levels are over ! and now i'm concentrating on getting a job .

going for job interview tomorrow at vivo with Fir Effie .

hopefully i get that job .

Build A Bear Workshop is where im going tomorrow .

wish me luck and pray for me please .

they are very much appreciated .

tyvm :D

what's wrong with my english today ?

2009-10-11T21:25:00.003+08:00

these are my choices of part-time job that i want .

but i really want to work here the most !

2009-09-19T22:40:00.002+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA

MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN !

2009-09-15T18:09:00.003+08:00

guess what i saw today at 7-11 ?

TAYLOR LAUTNER !!

i went crazy for a while in there holding the magazine tightly in my hands .

yes, i saw him on a magazine .

he is the cover boy !

he is so cute .

can't wait for my birthday to watch his next movie .

NEW MOON !

03.12.09

but i might be watching him turning into a werewolf on

08.12.09

which is my sweet 16 .

and also this saturday to watch him on TV ! 'The Adventures of Shark Boy and Lava Girl' .

the Shark Boy is him !

if don't believe ,

see his face properly and then you will believe me .

btw i am so gonna buy that magazine !

within this week i hope .

hah !

i've gone gaga on him already .

but i don't care cause ,

Taylor Lautner is my LOVE ! <33

2009-08-28T20:43:00.000+08:00

prelims have finished .

and i only pass my english & malay .

i know i cant do well in my maths, physics, chemistry, D&T and social studies .

but i am sad as i failed my literature for the first time .

i study the wrong thing again for everything .

and i hate it .

i hate screwing up my exams .

and i hate forgeting what i had study .

i am not good at memorizing but i tried .

and i still failed .

i feel like giving up .

but i won't give up .

i will study harder .

even though i will get more headaches .

hah !

2009-08-18T20:36:00.000+08:00

Show by Lenka .

[Chorus]:

i'm just alittle bit caught in the middle

life is a maze, and love is a riddle

i don't know where to go

can't do it alone

i've tried, but i don't know why.

...

slow it down, make it stop

or else my heart is going to pop

cause it's too much, yeah its alot

to be something i'm not

...

i'm a fool, out of love

cause i just can't get enough

...

[Chorus]

...

[bridge]:

i'm just a little girl lost in the moment

i'm so scared but i don't show it

i can't figure it out

it's bringing me down

i know, i've got to let it go

...

and just enjoy the show

...

the sun is hot in the sky

just like a giant spotlight

the people follow the signs

and synchronize in time

...

it's a joke, nobody knows

they've got a ticket to that show

yeah

...

[Chorus+Bridge]

...

and just enjoy the show

...

just enjoy the show

...

[Chorus+Bridge]

...

and just enjoy the show

...

just enjoy the show(x2)

...

i want my money back(x3)

...

just enjoy the show

...

i want my money back(x3)

...

just enjoy the show .

2009-08-17T18:53:00.003+08:00

i hurt my fingers .

two of my fingers actually .

the first finger is the finger between the middle finger and the thumb .

i was cutting a potato into two when suddenly,

i cut myself .

the second finger ,

which is the middle finger ,

was accidentally cut when i was slicing veggies .

they didn't hurt so much but my fingers were numb .

my father saw my injured fingers and said that i will become a good cook one day .

i don't know if his words were true but i just smile at him .

i was actually helping my mother .

she need to cook 'nasi briyani' for 150 people .

but i left half-way cause i'm tired and not used to work with 8 fingers only .

i took pictures as proof .

and i manage to pose and play with my injured fingers(with plasters) .

but i can't put the pics on my blog .

hmph !

2009-08-14T19:11:00.002+08:00

when i say i don't like someone , i meant what i said . don't bother calling me anymore . cause you keep calling me at the wrong time . cause when you called , i'm not home . so don't bother calling me anymore . can't we be just friends ? like we already are ? don't ask me for kisses . cause my kiss has been reserved/booked . and i'm sorry to say that it's not you . i am sorry , but i really can't . don't expect anything more from me . cause i'll not give you any . i like you . but not like how you like me . i like you like how i like the others in class . i am sorry but i hope you understand my situation . i hope we can still be friends ? just tag me if you wanna say something that you don't wanna speak out loud . tyvm :) to : sufieyan

2009-07-29T22:57:00.001+08:00

OMG !

i just can't believe what i had read from the paper today .

it was so 'ohmygosh i can't believe i'm reading this' !

actually i read it on the malay newspaper first .

however, the infomations given was too shallow .

so, i searched for a-dollar coin and went to the nearest 7-eleven shop and buy the straits times .

OMG !

i just can't believe i'm repeating this again !

the story was about three guys who was currently still in prison did some inhumanly things on another inmate .

the three guys beat, punched, kicked, step on the victim .

until the victim could not bear with them anymore and agreed to have sex with the three of them .

and the worst thing was ,

the three guys forced the victim to eat their faeces !

OHMYGOSH !

and he agreed to it of course as he got no other choice or the three of them will beat him up again and he already gotten a few broken ribs .

the three guys now had been given their punishment .

so many stokes they getting on the buttocks !

OUCH !!

however i pity the victim as he somehow had lost his confidence around people .

he also could not trust anyone anymore except for his parents .

the reason was one of the three guys was actually his friend .

however that guy broke the victim's trust towards him as he joined the other two inmates .

and the victim's "friend" had actually sodomised him !

can you believe that ?!

he was his friend ,

damn it !

how could you do that despicable thing to your friend that you stole things together ?

you sodomised him !

OHMYGOD !

are you gay or what ?

you really don't have to do that if you don't like him .

even if he bragged a lot or thinks that he's cool .

that part of the infomation really infuriate me alot .

whatever it is ,

i think you deserve your punishment .

HAH !

2009-07-22T15:25:00.000+08:00

hello hello !

guess where i am right now .

...

i 'm in my school's library .

waiting for my

'O' level Malay Listening Comprehension .

guess what time it started .

...

5 o'clock !!

OH MAN ,the time now is 3:30 PM

& i have to wait for another 1 hour 30 minutes more .

anyways ,

wish me luck okay !

Thank You Very Much (:

i gonna watch video at youtube now .

(where else ?)

but i dunno what to watch .

so i guess i just watch anything .

or maybe A7X ?

or Taylor Lautner ?

or whatever .

so i guess that's all i have to say or type .

bye-bye for now !

:) wish me luck (:

darn you, sufieyan don't wanna call me !

2009-06-25T21:50:00.000+08:00

i wanna wish my brother a

HAPPY 12th BIRTHDAY !

since tomorrow is his birthday ,

im gonna type him a birthday song for him now in advance .

here i go~

(*cough* ,*cough*)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU ,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ZAKIR ,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU !!

study hard for your PSLE, ok .

till now still slacking .

go study & stop playing soccer with your friends for a while .

i wanna say thanks to you for making all of us laugh like crazy everyday .

& thanks for looking for any vacant jobs that i can do with me that day .

2009-04-30T19:53:00.000+08:00

IM HUNGRY !

i had eaten just now but still hungry .

my appetite is worsen .

as days passed .

then i got stomach pain .

like gastric .

& dammit i hate it .

HATE IT !

gonna eat panadol later .

or NOW !

but i lazy to take it .

i have not even took out my contact lens .

still using it .

even though 10 hours after using it have passed .

that reminds me ,

i need to buy contact lens solution .

but i got no more money with me .

ive used almost all of it during recess due to my current appetite .

now waiting for people to reply my message .

ive send messages to people but no one replied .

so frustrating .

& that reminds me of something again ,

- go charge your phone lah

i need to tell you something

if not Omai will scold me for not doing my job -

PLEASE !

now i sound so desperate .

ah stupid hair .

keep irritate me .

later i'll comb you okay .

btw i cant get this songs outta my head .

Helena-MCR

(thanks to Omai) ,

Seize The Day-A7X

(thanks to english class)

now im addicted to them

& they're making me crazy .

i need to stop this addiction .

aahhh !

need to take panadol now .

headaches, stomach pain, back ache and sneezing

non-stop is killing me .

2009-04-20T16:07:00.000+08:00

went to courts megastore last saturday to check out new lap top ,

since my mum didnt want to buy computer .

we arrived there like about 15 minutes before closing time .

then i told my mum that i want to buy camera also but she ignore me .

i told her a few more times but i get a scolding from her ,

asking me to shut up :)

after talking to the promoter ,

my parents agreed on this laptop .

3 RAM, 300 HDD .

good enough for us

(me & my younger siblings, not my big bro cause he already got his :P) .

the promoter then told my parents that we will receive a free gift based on the dont-know-what-thingy .

i saw that we could choose camera for our free gift and i told my mum to choose the camera but instead ,

she told me to stop persuading her .

so i ended up sitting on a stool quietly while my parents talk to the promoter about the payment or something .

the promoter told me to give my mum chance as she want the free handphone for herself .

btw im not sulking ok :)

then ,

the promoter told my parents something that make me smile .

he said that we can only choose the second coloumn which have the cameras .

then my mum gave in and said

'ok ok i'll choose the camera'

then i was like

'YES !'

punching into the air and jump out from the stool .

then i said- ' har har har' -sarcasticly

and sit on the stool again .

hee hee :D

i got two things from my wishlist in a day, man !

this is SO making me happy .

'HAR HAR HAR'

we end up became the last customer of the day .

leaving the courts megastore at about 11 p.m. :)

2009-04-16T22:15:00.000+08:00

i really hope that all this things will stop .

what wrong have i done ?

i didn't say bad things bout you so why did you keep saying the things that i did not do .

don't you have life ?

just live your life and stop what you're doing to me you B .

stop giving me sleepless nights and making me loose my focus on my studies .

stop accusing me for causing your injuries .

stop making me hate you more .

cause i don't wanna hate anybody .

not even you .

2008-05-15T09:17:00.000+08:00

im in school now .

updating my blog .

now mother tongue languge .

dont know why suddenly my teacher's mood good today

& let us go to the computer lab .

today got NPCC parade in school .

i came a bit late, abit only .

then go toilet & saw ain, omai, chacha, susu & the rest were sec 2 squad .

till here ok .

ill continue next time .

you are my superman ~

2008-05-12T03:44:00.000+08:00

HELLO EVERYONE ! this is my first time update my blog using psp . since my computer spoil, i have not been updating my blog . then somemore my handphone also spoil . boring lah at home got nothing to do . watch tv also got nothing to watch . my ctv at home also cannot open . my father pay the bill already but still cannot . oh yah before i forget, i would like to wish HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY ! to all mothers in the world . today mother's day got nothing to do . everybody busy with their things . till here :D

you are my superman ~

2008-04-03T21:03:00.000+08:00

I made this music player at MyFlashFetish.com.

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house

That don’t bother me

I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out

I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while

Even though going on with you gone still upsets me

There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok

But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most

Was being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was tryin’ to do It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go

But I’m doin’ It

It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone

Still Harder

Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret

But I know if I could do it over

I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart

That I left unspoken What hurts the most

Is being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was trying to do What hurts the most

Is being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was trying to do (Not seeing that loving you)

That’s what I was trying to do

2008-03-31T18:47:00.000+08:00

till today, how many days i've not updated ?

i dont know .

my life has become more boring .

i dont even know what to say in my blog .

so boring .

tomorrow got NPCC .

dont know what fitness, lah .

tomorrow we, the sec three squad will be organizing the fitness thingy .

my duty for tomorrow is to assist the TOs .

must only bring PT kit for tomorrow .

ouh yeah .

no need bring full-u .

anyways my boots crack already .

now im waiting for my new sets of uniform .

but before that must measure first lah .

so troublesome seh .

okok lah .

today for the first time i didnt bring my tie seh .

i go around the school to borrow tie .

but all of them dont have .

so i didnt wear tie for the whole school period .

& i didnt get caught .

i hide all the way lah .

i hide from teachers when i saw them from far .

macam paham .

i cant see them actually lah cause of my eyesight and some more i dont like to wear specs .

luckily i got friends that help to hide me .

okok i want to eat now .

my stomach pain already havent eaten yet .

&& i think im addicted to the song "seasons in the sun" by westlife .

all thanks to Ain .

you are my superman ~

2008-03-21T16:40:00.000+08:00

i have not been updating for some time .

today is GOOD FRIDAY .

so boring at home .

yesterday after school got health check-up for OBS .

i cant wait for OBS .

very excited .

few more months till OBS .

my OBS is on o2/o6 - o6/o6 .

five days only .

during health checkup must check our height and weight .

& my height is 152 cm .

i dont know if its true lah cause the person that checked my height did not do it properly .

my height was actually 15o cm okeh .

okok im gonna stop here .

i dont know what to write anymore .

i hope Ain satisfied cause she's the one that keep asking me to update .

so i've update !

Happy Ain ?

i hope you do okeh .

keep branding-on Ain !

all of you are, loved !

2008-03-04T17:38:00.000+08:00

this morning was so funny .

i was walking with Hazirah to school .

then when we reached school, i slipped & fell .

but im not embarrased lah ok .

im just sit at that place for a few seconds cause my butt hurts .

ALOT !

but suprisingly, my skirt not wet .

&& btw fyi i didn't see S for the whole day !

all of you are, loved !

2008-03-03T16:32:00.000+08:00

AAARRRGGGHHHH !!!!!!!

im so stress lah seh !

i need somebody to teach me MATHS !

i need extra tuition cause my tuition teacher teach me so slow .

boleh tidur babe biler tuition teacher aku ajar .

tapi aku still understand and aku pay attention, okeh !

whatever lah, i just want somebody to teach me MATHS & PHYSICS .

anyways, today's school was so boring .

luckily no physics or it will be more boring-er [???]

the only subject thats not so boring is MATHS !

i think i like MATHS now .

maths class my desk partner was so irritating .

he kept on singing and telling stupid jokes .

& i laugh of course cause i can't controlled it .

then my PMS came and im in a kinda bad mood .

then need to stay back for a while about PHYSICS .

so boring .

the teacher came late and it was so frustrating seh .

he only think about himself .

when he not buzy then he come .

we actually ended school at 1:30 for NA/NT students .

but then he let us wait until nearly 2:30 .

&& ouh i nearly forgot .

i finally saw S .

when staying back for the PHYSICS thingy .

dier baru potong rambot, babe !

he just got his hair cut .

gagagagaga .

cute lah seh !

gagaga !

at least my day ended nicely .

all of you are, loved !

2008-03-01T15:04:00.000+08:00

i am so tired lah seh .

i just came back from doing CIP .

wake up early .

cause need to assemble at Concord Pri. by 9:30 a.m .

at Concord, i go search S .

i thought he came before me but actually he came later then me .

CUTE lah he .

he came with his friends .

he always walk behind his friends lah .

he let his friends walk first .

GENTLEMEN lah seh .

then he walk walk walk then he stop in front of me .

i don't know what he looking for lah .

then my friends menyebok lah .

they go disturb me then he saw me then he shy shy then he walk away to his friends .

then i didn't see him again .

[to abang; kalau kao bacer, bacer lah pelan pelan . nie nk ketawer kn aku plk . aku bacer blog kao, aku tk bacer kuat kuat pon . nie kao bacer spi satu rumah boleh dengar abe nk ketawer kn aku plk . mepek ajer .]

all of you are, loved !

2008-02-12T22:17:00.000+08:00

UPDATE !

i know that i did not updating since the beginning of this year .

but my still is still not dead yet ok .

i'm just not allowed + busy with homework & revisions .

even if ive got no homework, i still didnt update cause im tired .

ouh yah !

i still havent said about my shooting .

i went for live shooting, which mean using real bullets + gun, last friday .

i was hoping to get MARKSMAN for it by getting 65 or 70 marks and above .

however, i only get 59 marks .

so i didnt get MARKSMAN .

& of course i was disappointed + sad .

i cried after i count the marks i get until sampai kat school .

hmph .

i kept thinking about polythecnic you know .

i dont know why .

my brother is the one thats gonna go poly soon .

but im the one whos excited .

i think im crazy .

i dont know if i pass my exam or not .

& i dont know if im eligible to go poly 3 years later .

i dont know why .

every time i woke up from sleep, i would be thinking about polythecnics .

& i would be thinking about NGEE ANN the most .

haiyo .

i dont know what telah happen to me .

okok i wanna sleep now .

wanna go to school early tomorrow .

good night, sleep tight, dont let the bed bugs bite !

i miss you !

all of you are, loved !

2008-01-26T16:50:00.000+08:00

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see

That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be

I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about

And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's so damn funny

That I can't even see anyone when he's with me

He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,

I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

[Chorus:] He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar

The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star

He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?

And there he goes, so perfectly,

The kind of flawless I wish I could be

She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love

Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

[Repeat Chorus]

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light

I'll put his picture down and maybe

Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar

The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart

He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

He's the time taken up, but there's never enough

And he's all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see.

2008-01-14T14:53:00.000+08:00

its been quite a while that ive not been blogging .

but my blog is not DEAD yet, ok .

its just that ive been doing homework & tons of revision .

& so, since today ive got no homework, i post .

hees .

im so happy cause my mom let me go to the gym .

only $1 at Zhenghua CC .

i already make a plan with Caca to go to the gym every wednesday & Saturday each week .

i really need to loose many weight in order to not join the Wellness Club, man !

so hopefully, i get to loose weight .

loosing weight is my 'azam' since little .

but i keep gaining weight so i change my 'azam' .

I REALLY HOPE THAT MY EFFORT WORTH ALOT !

ALL OF YOU ARE, LOVED !

2007-12-26T13:44:00.000+08:00

i forgot to say that

who want themes can ask me .

i can make it for you .

any handphone models .

tell me and i'll help you create new themes .

you want your picture as your theme ?

your favourite characters ?

brands ?

anything just tell me and i'll create it for you, ok .

http://www5.ownskin.com/home?u=icecream0812

all of you are, loved !

2007-12-26T13:26:00.000+08:00

I'm darn tired .

came home late yesterday .

cause we go to

PASIR RIS PARK

to ride bicycle .

so fun even though tiring .

&& my sis was acting like a

PRINCESS

yesterday .

we cycle about 4 - 5 rounds but she cycle only about 2 - 3 rounds .

then she say her legs pain .

aiya, her legs are way smaller then mine but she said her legs were tired .

have i said about the handphone ?

my mum had just bought me a new handphone .

she bought me a

SONY ERICSSON K630i .

i think its a new handphone, lah .

thats what my mum, bro & the man at the shop said .

but i still

LOVIN' IT !

i think i want to go bathe first .

hehe .

all of you are, loved !

2007-12-21T14:11:00.000+08:00

OOOUUUUUCCCHHHH ! !

i just came back from the clinic.

go with Dad & kidbro.

kidbro aku nk dekat kene 'sunat' or in other words 'khatan'.

& as for the meaning in english is, ...

i've forgotten, deng

ooooh the doctor so sombong.

she press my hurt ear so hard, man !

uhuh & i was in pain but i still bear the pain, lah

bought BBQ pau & chrysanthemum tea-yumyum- for breakfast but got no appetite.

after kidbro done with his pau & drink, he asked me for my pau.

& i said no.

then he ask for $2 from me instead of Dad.

when back home ourselves cause Dad go for friday prayers & my bro doesnt want to follow him.

his reason: "nanti kakak kene balik sorang-sorang"

yesterday came back home late at night.

watch HADY performing at the ASIAN IDOL

watch a lttle bit of result show, then need to go to grandpa house.

my Dad drive faster than usual cause he also want to watch Hady sing.

Hady telah memikat hatiku dengan suaranya yang sungguh merdu sekali.

oh, sehingga terbawa-bawa ke dalam mimpiku.

its real, baybeh.

okok i got a new song to post.

loads of songs but i dont know which one i should post on my blog, bloggie.

hoho, maybe i'll try putting this song on my blog, ok bloggie.

on the other post.

all of you are, loved !

2007-12-20T14:35:00.000+08:00

*- SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDIL ADHA -*

2007-12-19T17:14:00.000+08:00

WADUH !

so boring today, man.

& im sick.

ear pain.

dont know what happen to my ear till i fall sick, seh

HAIYA !

& today is the third day im suffer from the pain.

i will freeze and shivering in cold at the afternoon from

1600 - 1900 hours,

my body temperature will heat up at night,

& i will wake up from my sleep with pain and

will cry in the toilet to bear the pain

due to my ear on the right !

& STILL im waiting for my b'day present.

from my parents and CACA.

she said she bought me cardigan.

HAIYO !

i hope can fit.

AHHA !

talking about fitting,

i was actually couldnt believe it that i could fit into a skinny jeans.

TOTALLY REAL THING !

if you couldnt believe me, bloggie, i also actually didnt believe it either.

& u know what, bloggie, i had actually recite some prayers before i put on that pants, u know !

& lucky it fit or my MUM would be angry for wasting her money.

PHEW !

not only that she also bought BLACK & WHITE HOODED JACKET !

both bought SOMEWHERE at woodlands.

dont believe it ?

come to my house and see it for yourself if you want to.

i didnt force, ok.

feel free to come.

went JOHOR to buy new school bag & new shoes & new pencil case.

my bag is GREEN in colour.

dont mind if you dont like it.

cause i like it.

and my trip to PLAZA ANGSANA where i bought the school stuffs was ok.

and it also changes my thoughts.

like ... i dont know.

you know, bloggie, i actually always thought that guys in johor are not handsome.

but at ANGSANA it really change my thought about them.

at the place where i bought my school stuffs at a shop named,

SILVER PLANET.

i saw some guys working there that have a nice appearance, finally.

you dont believe me dont you, bloggie, then you should go to PLAZA ANGSANA JOHOR BAHRU.

okok i'll stop talking about johor.

tomorrow is HARI RAYA HAJI !

i wonder why they call hari raya 'haji', ehk ?

hmm ...

i dont know lah i forget.

i fail my madrasah, deng

my mum will cook NASI BRIYANI CHICKEN + MUTTON tonight.

& like usually i HAVE TO help her.

maybe i'll be sleeping at the living room today while helping my momma.

& OUCH my ear hurts again.

whow, whow, whow

i nearly forgot something important that makes me SO VERY HAPPY !

heeheeheehees.

HADY WON THE ASIAN IDOL !

WHOOHOO !

thats my HADY !

you go BOY !

wueks, my hady konon.

macam betul jer.

my mother really thought that Abhijeet could win, lah

i also dont know why, man !

& i still stick to HADY even though i thought at that point of time HADY couldnt win.

& how happy am i when Hady was pronounced as the FIRST ASIAN IDOL, baybeh.

all of you are, loved !

2007-12-14T17:14:00.000+08:00

i heard this new song from MTV.

my brother told me about this song & he said its nice.

hear it yourself, ok

I look around me

But all I seem to see

Is people going nowhere

Expecting sympathy

It’s like we’re going through the motions

Of the scripted destiny

Tell me where’s our inspiration

If life wont wait

I guess it’s up to me

Whoahh

No we’re not gonna waste another moment in this town

Whoahh

We wont come back, the world its calling out

Whoahh

Leave the past in the past gonna find the future

And misery loves company

Well so long

You’ll miss me when I’m gone

You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone

Procrastination running circles in my head

While you sit there contemplating you’ll wind up left for dead (left for dead)

Life is what happens

While you’re busy making your excuses

Another day, another casualty

But that won’t happen to me

Whoahh

No we’re not gonna waste another moment in this town

Whoahh

We wont come back, the world its calling out

Whoahh

Leave the past in the past gonna find the future

And misery loves company

Well so long

You’ll miss me when I’m gone

You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone

When I’m gone

Let’s go…!

Won’t look back

When I say goodbye

We’re gonna leave this world behind me

Gonna take what’s mine tonight

‘cause every wasted day

Becomes a wasted chance

You’re gonna wake up feeling sorry

‘cause life won’t waitI guess it’s up to you

Whoahh

No we’re not gonna waste another moment in this town

Whoahh

We wont come back, the world its calling out

Whoahh

Leave the past in the past gonna find the future

And misery loves company

Well so long

You’ll miss me when I’m gone

You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone

2007-12-14T16:04:00.000+08:00

i've just remember something that i need to post on my blog.

it might not be important to you,

but it is important to me.

i didnt mention before that we went to the K9 UNIT right,

during the camp?

i saw someone looks exactly like

PETER LEWIS KINGSTON WENTZ III

aka

PETE WENTZ

a bassist from

FALL OUT BOYS.

do you know who he is?

ok, this is a picture of PETE

and this is a picture of FOB

ok, the guy that i saw at K9 was taking care of his dog.

i know that you won't believe it but its true.

i was wearing my specs that time ok.

not only me saw him, the others also.

only some didn't cause he was standing at the back.

caca and me was standing at the back too cause caca was afraid of the dogs, lah.

hmph, i think i'm going to johor again this saturday.

with my family of course.

i wonder where would my parents bring us to.

hmm ...

all of you are, loved !

2007-12-11T12:06:00.000+08:00

3 days ago was my b'day !

celebrate my b'day at SWENSEN'S at Changi Airport.

actually my mother wanted to give me money for my b'day present.

i told her that i want a new handphone instead of money for my b'day.

i know what kind of hp that i want.

its either

nokia 5610 XpressMusic

nokia 5700 XpressMusic.

but i need to wait until my parents got their pay.

*sigh*

i dont know how long i need to wait.

*sigh*

2007-12-02T16:18:00.000+08:00

i'm not in the mood now to blog actually.

cause something & someone make me this way.

like so what if i write that-to him ...

i think i'm not gonna write down about e two days camp, lah.

it will make me REGRET cause of one thing.

but nvm i just type down i little bit bout the trip.

go with CPS & CCKPS.

i met this pri. 5 cute boy.

his name is NUR IKMAL.

from CPS

and he looks totally like SOFI.

not very.

he keep talking to me like he knows me already.

but i don't know him.

he bought foods and he offered me some and i offered caca some.

& this policeman, which is a guy.

that this two pri.6 CPS girls keep looking at and had a pic taken with him.

like DUH ! his handsome thats why !

& do you wanna know his name?

his name is ...

ALMI

nice name and nice face.

its fun anyway even though its cold.

like in snow cause every place we visited are air_conditioned except the PRISON.

YEAH, we went IN the prison.

we get locked in this small stuffy room which called the PC

or the Punishment Cell.

a place where inments get punished after doing a thing that the police don't like.

even a small thing like lose of spoon.

a small room that can fit 5-6 inments in it.

we went there on the second day, actually.

okok i won't say the thing that make me REGRET.

not because of going into the prison lah for goodness sake.

other thing ... that thing about the police ...

& btw i just remember something ...

hees.

from now intil my birthday is only ...

6 more days !

i'm excited of course.

all of you are, loved !

2007-11-29T13:35:00.000+08:00

9 more days till my 14th BIRTHDAY !

hees. i am so happy.

i am sure i celebrating my birthday at SWENSENS.

my other wish is granted.

2007-11-23T21:11:00.000+08:00

YEAH ! YEAH !

tomorrow is the day, BAYBEH.

i planned to buy things like souveneir for my family.

and of course for myself.

i've prepared everything and ready for tomorrow.

now i going to sleep so that i could wake up early tomorrow.

BYE & TAKE CARE !

all of you are loved !

2007-11-22T15:34:00.000+08:00

WOOHOO!

two more days left, baybeh!

i'm counting down the time till Saturday!

i am so very EXCITED, seh.

i'm all set to JOHOR!

JOHOR KOTA TINGGI, HERE I COME !!!

and 5 more days till i go to the

2 DAYS NON-RESIDANTAL CAMP !

i've handed in the consent form just now at

CCK INTERCHANGE

with CACA.

ate NASI AYAM and CHRYSANTHEMUM TEA

at FOOD CULTURE.

and she only bought COKE for lunch.

then walk at e BAAZAR near LOT 1.

and i bought KEROPOK LEKOR for my nenek.

and i realise that i left with only $1.30

so i bought $1

5 for $1.

and YEAH ! i get excited again and i can't really wait !

and again like i said,

JOHOR KOTA TINGGI, HERE I COME !!!

2007-11-20T22:02:00.000+08:00

Red Jumpsuit Apparatus-Your Guardian Angel

When I see your smile

Tears roll down my face

I can't replace

And now that I'm strong I have figured out

How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul

And I know I'll find deep inside me, I can be the one

I will never let you fall

I'll stand up with you forever

I'll be there for you through it all

Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's ok, It's ok, It's ok

Seasons are changing and waves are crashing

And stars are falling all for us

Days grow longer and nights grow shorter

I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall

I'll stand up with you forever

I'll be there for you through it all

Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cause you're my

You're my

My true love

My whole heart

Please don't throw that away

Cause I'm here, for you

Please don't walk away and

Please tell me you'll stay, stay...

Use me as you will

Pull my strings just for a thrill

And I know I'll be okay

Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall

I'll stand up with you forever

I'll be there for you through it all

Even if saving you sends me to heaven

I will never let you fall

I'll stand up with you forever

I'll be there for you through it all

Even if saving you sends me to heaven

2007-11-15T15:42:00.000+08:00

9 MORE DAYS TILL I GO TO JOHOR ! !

i can't wait. i can't wait.

i'm counting down the days, man !

WEE~

but before that, i still got many things to prepare for the trip to Johor.

i need to buy things.

So that it is easier for me at Johor.

Things that i wanna buy are:

Contact lense
Cardigan

i'll tell you the reasons why i need both of them.

it is because:

i need the contact lense cause my eyesight is not good & i don't prefer to wear specs rather than contact lense even though contact lense is 'leceh'.
i want cardigan cause its in my wishlist, ok ?

but there's some things that stop me from buying this stuffs.

and they are:

my mother confiscate my money including savings after she know that i bought PSP with some of that money.
and my mom will surely won't let me go out of the house to buy those stuffs.
there's no one to accompany me to buy those stuffs.

But the third reason is nothing compared to the first and second reason cause i will find other people who want to accompany me.

HAHS. i've been listening to this song titled 'YOUR GUARDIAN ANGLE-THE RED JUMPSUIT APPARATUS'

damn nice to me.

i've been repeating this song since morning when i switch on the computer.

Now, i think i've been listening to this song about more than 20 times.

okok, i need to go prepare meal for dinner later.

BYE !

& i more thing, IMISSYOUSOMUCH *F*S !

2007-10-11T16:54:00.000+08:00

HELLO! HELLO! 2 evri1..so long oredi i dint update..2 more daes 2 HARI RAYA! n i cant wait..YIPPEE! actuali i cut mie hair oredi hahs more nicer den b4 n i took some pics..

from e left..from e front..from e right..

den 2 dae i go bowling with e whole sec 2...honestly, i nvr hold e bowling ball b4 so 2dae is mie 1st tym holding n playing 10PIN BOWLING...

e ball heavy but not so heavy...actuali i donoe dat 2dae got dis sport ting n nid 2 wear p.e attire but luckili actuali 2dae suppose 2 have p.e lesson n i wear it as i tot 2dae got p.e...we go 2 e bowling at e place called THE CHEVRON..

plae bowling so syiok but e ball kip rolling 2 e longkang seh haiz...sian sian sia...

2007-08-13T20:07:00.000+08:00

i LOVE the click five song titled JENNY so much..especially e lead singer ... KYLE PATRICK((:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qqqPNbZhENk

so how? kiut rite..tell mi wat u tink bout him after u watch e video ok..tag mi :D

2007-08-13T20:00:00.000+08:00

im sick 2dae..since morning..maeb due 2 not enough slip ..errgh..im having running nose n it is e most irritating disease dat i got..i dint go wellnness 2dae..skip it 4 a dae..confirm 2moro in e morning mr tan will search 4 mi n ask mi 2 run around e field in e morning..i nvr run in e field in e morning b4 4 mr tan n i dowan 2 du it olso..embarrasing..but i don tink i will it embarassing cos exercising in the morning is good..i hope 2moro i will not go 2 skool..i rili hope dat mie temperature will rise n no nid go skool..its useless going 2 skool 2dae..most of e tchers go pulau ubin 2 follow e sec 3s OBS..its a leisure camp ... i cant wait 4 mie turn 2 go 2 e OBS!!

2007-08-07T20:41:00.000+08:00

i felt so lonely.. they did not care about me anymore.. they did not want to talk to me anymore.. they left me alone.. they make me feel as if i am a stranger to them.. why did they do that.. they did not talk to me.. and ignored me whenever i tried to talk to them.. their attitude changed suddenly after Mother Tongue class yesterday.. i want to talk to them but they look as if they are irritated with me.. oh GOD what had happend to my friends.. they are my only friends and why did they do this to me.. they knew very well that i am very sensitive.. i could cry easily.. they knew that i could not live without talking.. but why do they treat me as if i am invisible.. why do they treat me like a stranger.. i feel lonely.. i feel abandoned.. i would cry everytime when i saw them happily together without me tagging along with them.. oh GOD onli you know how sad i was.. onli you know how much pain i felt.. they may see me with no expression but they did not know that i feel sad so badly till i want to cry.. tomorrow is the day that i am looking forward to.. we supposed to go celebrate National Day together at McDonald's.. but their behavior today makes me really sad.. i was disappointed.. i had been waiting for the day to come and this is what happend.. i am so sad.. i believe that they don't know how i felt this two days.. how long will it last? how long will i be ignored? how long will i be with them again like those times.. the times when we laugh non-stop till our stomach hurt.. laugh non-stop till we need to go to the toilet.. the happy and the sad times we when through together.. i really don't want this to happend.. if it's is because of me, my behavior, or my attitude just tell me and maybe i could change it.. i noticed that my behavior nowadays changed.. i was not in the mood.. i don't know why this few days i had been so straight forward.. not in a good way but the bad way.. i know that you hate me, especially ***.. you will say that i am extra.. you will always try your best to hurt me.. you will always sulk and always point my fault to others.. i remember the promised that i make to myself.. that i will not let my history about my primary school's life to repeat again in my secondary school's life.. but all of it was useless.. and it had repeated itself again.. i know that you would not even bother to read all this.. but this is what i felt during this two days.. only two days and many things had happend.. i know that you would not be sad because you don't know how i feel.. you don't know the pain that i felt.. you don't know anything.. because all the things that you know is to hurt me, to make me cry, to make me sad, to make me feel lonely and to left me alone all by myself when i actually cared so much about you then i care about my own self..

2007-07-31T17:17:00.000+08:00

its been a very boring dae for e past 2daes..common test n stuffs..yesterdae got NDP rehearsal..so fun iven though very tiring..but syiok..can sing songs lyk e.g. five stars arising n my people my home..need 2 sing loudly but i didnt i just mumble cos i 4got e lyrics n if i sing ludly n den i sing it wrongly den i pai seh oredi so i mumble e song all e wae..1st try prac. i very blur2 i didnt pay attention so much on e whole ting cos i was kinda dissapointed cos i didnt see him e whole dae n i tot hi was absent but den suddenli wen e 5 minutes break i saw him n i was kinda xcited..haha so kiut NCC guy..supporting contigent's ic 4 e NCC contigent..muahahaha..den after dat e 2nd pract i du it properly..happy n satisfied wif mieself after i done all of it correctly..i was kinda proud of mieself cos i didnt fall-out..i dont lyk 2 fall-out actuali or even see e other NP cadets falling-out..so sad seh cos lyk about 5 NP cadets fall-out...wen e 2nd pract.i was in e last row..densudenli 2 ppl in front mi fall-out..den i was alone..n den nid 2 march n i was alone in dat row..haha..kinda funny..arrive home late lyk about 7.40 yesterdae den i wash mie uniform kip mie boots in store mie belt, buttons, beret, hairnet in mie drawer..n mie socks into e washing machine..btw mie uniform i hand-washed it..den mie mum call n ask mi 2 go down shi bring mi go eat nasi ayam near joo chiat there..den wen i was at mie void-deck , sudenli i saw an orange car..nvr seen dis car b4 around mie neighbourhood..den i luk inside n saw mie parents n mie adek2 in it..wah so hapi finali got car..i went in it..it was so big..so syiok man ... okok stop toking bout yesterdae..2dae 's test was ok..literature.. i 4get all types of poems..y i olwaes 4get drg exams n i hate it so much..i hate mie 4getfulness..hate it loads....dis morning i was tired not enough slip..i comb mie hair anihow n i get irritated wif it..n tied it back..den sumting hapi hapens..i took e same bus wif e NCC guy..haha veri xcited..hi was standing at e mddle part dat can turn2 n stuffs..i was lyk luking at him a bit.. i shy larh seh..but hapi..den hi kinda luk at mi n i quickly luk away..i sit at e backbut i could see him clearly enough though..hi was listening 2 his mp3/mp4/ipod..i duno..hi luks so kiut..OMG AARRGGGGHHHH....hi was toking wif his fwen den hi smile den laugh..AAARRGGHHH SO KIUT..den after mie common test n after his mother tongue lesson..hi walk pass mie class...i was lyk luking at him..hi was kinda luking inside mie clas n sudenli his eyes was luking at mi..hi didnt smile cos i didnt smile at him..but HI LUKS SO KIUT... iven though hi got lots of pimples n his face..but kiut wat..I LIKE WANNA PINCH HIS CHEEK N SQUEEZE HIS PIMPLES LOLX XD..so cute i canot stand it..den sumting sad hapen n i cry n i was kinda ignoring ppl n didnt tok 2 dem 4 a while...i was kinda taking revenge but i dunno y don ask mi...

2007-07-27T17:47:00.000+08:00

she did it again.. those hurtful words.. but now its a bit different.. she say that i went home late today because i went to follow my friends.. she say i go down to the canal with some guys and do things that i not supposed to do.. tears drop on cheeks while i was eating.. how can she all those words.. i really don't like her saying all that kinds of stuffs about me.. as my grandmother, she should understand me.. but instead of understanding me, she created stories.. she say again that later i will become pregnant and all these shit.. i really doesn't like her say that to me.. doesn't she know that all the words that came out from her mouths were hurtful.. doesn't she know that i felt sad about all her crap about me.. but the truth is, i went to study in the library for a while with a bunch of girl friends.. and not guy friends.. how can she say that about me?.. honestly speaking, if there were no rules in this country, in my religion and my race, i felt like killing her.. but i can't because she is my grandmother.. the one that took care of me since i was a baby when my mother goes to work.. i really can't stand it.. i tried of ignoring all the things that she said.. but she still continue talking.. then sometimes, when she was not happy with me, she will kick me.. my heart hurts when she kicked me.. how can she kicked me.. just because i didn't do what she say sometimes, doesn't mean i let her kick me.. do you know it hurts so much.. do you know how much pain was it?? no right.. that's because you don't know how i feel..

2007-07-26T18:37:00.000+08:00

u noe wat..just now rite after wellness rite..i go home larh take 190..den got 3 jantans..i donnoe wat dey were duin but dey was ... well i dunnoe..i just luk straight..onli move a lil wen i nid 2..den i alight 4rm e bus n dey olso did e same..den ah wen dah turun 4rm bus den 1 of e jantans lyk purposely stamp his feet b4 hi bedek2 tie his shoelace..paderhal his shoe got no sjoelace..den i turn 2 luk larh cos hi go stamp his feet loudly wat..den wen i turn, hi luk at mi..den i luk in front n walk away..den e 2 more jantan toking 2 each other..den e jantan dat tie "shoelace" run 2 dem..den 1 of e guy dat wear cap push e "shoelace"..den sudenli e "tie shoelace" sae in malay.. "..eh aper bukan aku yg cakap larh dier larh yg cakap. dier yg ckp abang-abang pierce..." den i was lyk pierce?? den i luk at their face den got many2 piercing..den dey luk at mi den dey sae bye..den i smile..den e "shoelace" sae dat i smile nt sincerely in malay..den i was lyk smiling while laughing..den e 1 sdat wearing cap sae "namer saper?" meaning 'wats ur name'..den i was lyk stil laughing while smiling den walk away..den sudenli rite i hear dey all lyk whistle liddat but den i just walk n didnt turn bhind..JANGAN PANDANG BELAKANG..lolx lyk real...but e whole tingy is real ok..lucky bhind mi dont have mie bro...skali wen i go home, mie bro was lyk at e com wif his gf..her gf name is APRIL TEO..yup shi is a chinese..but mie bro sae shi eat halal food onli..btw i cant wait 4 e NDP at skool..i invole u noe..NPCC rawks oll e wae!!!<333WOOHOO!!! XD

2007-07-22T22:29:00.000+08:00

i just got scv cable in mie house...HOORAY!! i can watch more programmes now..haha so happy..i wanna recap on dis morning in e bus.. i was on mie way home from woodlands with mie famili..but i sit in front..far away from dem..den 1 stop away after e bus-stop dat i bought e bus got 1 guy in black hi carry guitar on his back lyk dat larh.. den hi luk at mi den i luk at him back ..den hi smile..den i smile at him back..n actuali l8r i found out dat hi is a punk rocker..n im lyk emo wif mie hair n specs..iwasnt lyk cheeky2 liddat ok ..hi smile at mi den i smile at him back lor..tkkn nk jeling pulak kn..2 mie bro if u read dis..plis don laugh at mi..cos im not making stories ok..pandai2 jer..u canot ask alang or zack cos dey not sit with mi ok..dey sit at e back..lyk a few seats away liddat so dey duno ok.. but e guy kinda kiut..but hi duno how 2 smile..hi funi wen hi smile..i cant find emo ppl ..onli ppl with emo hairs onli i saw..

2007-07-21T16:12:00.000+08:00

wtf siial!! mie skirt was torn by sombody.. but i duno hu du it seh!! at 1st mie sis skool skirt was being torn until e zip all gone bout 1 or 2 months ago..den 2dae it mie skool skirt..i hang it outsyd 2 dry it after washing it den mie 4th bro saw it on e 13th floor(i live in e 12th floor)..stupid seh dat ppl..if dey tk puas hati ckp dpn2 arh..ni nk koyak kn skirt org sumer..mepek larh siial.. i yesterdae 4got 2 write dat 2 daes ago i stand bsyd e same emo guy dat i seen b4..its not lyk i walk bsyd him but hi walk walk walk den hi stand bsyd mi..haha..but den in e bus got mie bro n his gf but i didnt realise..den after go down 4rm bus mie bro n her gf make mi shocke..den at home mie bro kip saeing dat i kip smiling at e emo guy but den i didnt i onli luk at his face once den i luk infront..i stand infront of e door..but e emo guy smoke arh..i can smell it cos hi stand bsyd mi wat..so wasted siia..but i don care cos hi is VERY CUTE!!!! ^^

2007-07-20T21:40:00.000+08:00

boring siiak at home..du nutin..but actuali im tired..just now got NP , prac 4 e NDP..dis year NCC b e GOH..i hope next year i can b e GOH..can carry rifle..2dae quite fun even doh tired..i cant stop fidgeting a lil bit cos many insects crawling on mie legs n i canot scratch so i squeeze mie hand as hard as i can 2 endure e insects crawling.. yesterdae got POP 1st den after dat got ROD..dis year ROD not fun 2 mi cos e most enthu ppl in our squad canot come cos got sumtin else..n most of dem r e guys..so e guys onli left less den 10..so as u can imagine..miy squad is e onli squad wif less ppl in it..sao siianx man..den dey game started but so short lyk no fair..last year was longer.. e game dat shud block oll e NCOs 4rm entering n stuffs lyk dat..

2007-07-05T19:38:00.000+08:00

i donoe wat 2 du now..veri boring rite now..i donoe yet if 2moro hav NP or nt..maeb l8r i go 2 mie fwenster den imvu..long tym didnt go der..donoe wat hapen..den sumore mie neopet..but dat 1 pri 6 i stop oredi..skali dat ting dead oredi..haha gud larh i olso dowan take care cos boring larh..i donoe hu on9 now..i just sign int mie msn but den didnt chat/check h on9..now maeb i go mie fwenster ferst..bye((:

2007-07-02T12:20:00.000+08:00

yesterdae go cut hair. till short. its lyk 25% boy, 25% emo, 25% nice, 25% short. but overall nice larh lyk emo. but if u see mi wif mie hair short u don laugh at mi arh. yesterdae at BPP got e anugerah tingy there but i didnt watch it. i go der a while den go buy tings. den dat nite go out 4 dinner at woodlands, mie famili oll order our food at 9 oclock but den we get our food at10 o clock. 1hr wait 4 our food. cos got stoopid b'dae party. got ppl celebrate larh. dey go order food so many. lyk canot celeb at home lyk dat.

2007-06-26T20:00:00.000+08:00

Just now go shooting. At first like nervous a bit then suddenly more terok rasernyer. Mie heart was lyk beating so fast when getting ready 2 shoot. Very thrilling?? i guess. I donoe how to explain the feeling drg dat tym larh. Den sumore mie hand was shivering wen reloading. maeb bcoz of e air-con ((: Haha lyk real onli e aircon. No larh actuali feel scared a lil bit. den nervous den cold den shaking den shivering den feel lyk going toilet cos 2 scared. I 4get 2 bring along mie specs seh b4 falling-in. Nervous wat of cos evriting olso 4got den sumore dey ask 2 fall-in quickly, wat 2 du. But lucky rite i got 10 in 0 out. Good rite((: good anot?? good rite(: i noe its gud :P. At least i try wat. First tym u noe go live shoot. But e onli ting dat not gud bout it wen i take back e board is dat, i see all e target i shoot all dispers. So sad seh ): But at least try wat. Next year got live shoot sumore. I better bring along mie specs next year if i wanna get marksmen. Hope next year me n mie squadmates get marksmen. Btw 2dae is mie bro, e 4th in siblings, zakir, b'dae. But 2 bad i didnt buy him b'dae present. Got no tym wat. Den hi sae i olwaes buy food. His head larh. Anyhow onli.Get present oredi 4rm parents MP4 sumore. I olso don have MP4 onli MP3 n handphone onli u noe. Stoopid Zack. Ur head larh anihow sae ah. Knock ur head till headache den u noe den got 1 egg on his head(benjol). He till now hi got discman, MP3 n MP4. haha no HP 4 him. 2 bad 2 sad. den arh now hi sit bsyd mi n rid wat im typing den hi laugh3 den act kiut. U wanna noe sumting, hi got 1 pillow dat hi named CICI(stoopid name). Den hi olwaes plae wif his daddi mie 5th bro, mikail, very e slenger, bello. Den ah evridae noisy2 plae. lyk donoe how 2 plae quitely lyk dat. Den hi sae dat i olso donoe how 2 plae quitely olwaes shout3 den shout open mouth big2 den sumbat hotdog in mie mouth. Den now hi laugh lyk crazie ppl. Lyk AIN just now. Actuali ah hi now got stomach ache n wanna berak/go poopoot den hi siow at hier donoe du wat. ok larh till hier ah i wanna watch ANUGERAH.hope ALIFF out n HUSSEIN in((:

2007-06-18T15:24:00.000+08:00

How would you feel when your grandmother keep calling you names? How would you feel when your grandmother keep talking bad things about you? How would you feel when you could not stand your grandmother anymore and hope that she could stop doing it that second and she did not? How would you feel when your grandmother keep forcing you to do all the things that she say when you have your own important things to do? You would get irritated rite? You would get angry when she say something unpleasant about you rite? And she will keep shouting all day instead of talking nicely to you. Then at night instead of sleeping, she talks with you until you were restless the day after. When you ask her to keep quite for a moment and go to sleep, she will shout back at you and say that you are rude to her and ungrateful that she took care of you when you were young. Then she will start back her grandmother stories about how she took care of you no matter it rains or shine. Then she talk about mosquitoes, not letting any one of them taste our sweet, young blood. Then she will continue everything back from the start including talking bad about you and calling you names that you does not like. Maybe to her it was nothing. But to me, it hurts so much. So much that i cried and does not want to talk to her anymore. So hurtful that i ignored her and turn a deaf ear when she talks to me. It hurts so much that i become rude to her and she thought that i was heartless and thinks that i did not love her anymore. She does not know that i actually love her so much as much as how she love me when she look after me when i was young. She does not know that she actually made me feel this way and she thought that she was not at fault that i became this way to her. Then she will complain to my mother about my rude attitude towards her. Every single day, she will call you names. Every single day, all kinds different hurtful names was mentioned to you. Every single day, she makes you hate her. Every single day, she makes you ignoring her Every single day, you will not talk to her. Every single day, your life was in misery. And every night you cried so hard, hoping ther is someone to help you. Help you to stop her doing all the things that she had done. You cry in your prayers, seek help from God to help you. You ask for good things for your grandmother, hope that she will live long. Ask for her to live long so that she will do all good deeds before her day has come. You do all this things for your grandmother and not for yourself as you love her so much. No matter how sad you are with her. She is still your grandmother. No matter how wet your pillow are due to crying all nights, it was all for her. Only she does not know.

2007-05-11T19:59:00.000+08:00

u noe wat..those bunch of stupid chinese girls in mie class make mi pissed off u noe...u noe mr tan tell us 2 choose between get punishment or withdraw from cheering comp bcos of e 2 guys hu eat in class..den all e boys dowan 2 get punishment so dey wan our class 2 b out from e cheering comp...den our form tcher cum 2 our class and let us vote fairly...at 1st e 5 chinese girl sae dat dey wan e cheering comp...den sudenli instead 4 voting 'yes' dey go n vote 'no' with e boys...stupid rite...b4 e voting starts, e boys go lyk force dem 2 let us out 4rm e cheering comp...den dey foolishly vote wif dem larh of course lyk olwaes...u all rili bodoh u noe..y u have 2 follow wat e guys said...just bcos u lyk dem den u wan 2 listen 2 dem isit?? huh? so stupid...u tink if u all follow wat dey sae den dey will trat u nicely n lyk u larh isit?? f*** off larh u all...den we loose e vote n we cry den u all lyk action2 feel guilty larh...den apologised n watsoever...lagi2 si ketot 2 nk count braper org yg vote 4 'yes' konon...go 2 h*** larh korg...den 2dae wan 2 apologised n all dat....den nk uat muker marah konon paderhal korg yg mmg salah per...bengap sak korg..satu2 btl2 bodoh..go n listen 2 e guys...e guys actuali coward u noe..dowan 2 face e punishment..e guys r big damn coward..just bcos dat dae u all have ur soccer match n ur opponents class olso get caught bcos of e same mistakes...sae ppl bapok wen u r e 1 hu is a damn kedi bapok..wanna act cool onli wen u oll kental nk mampos..jln pon mcm aper...nk attract pompan jer tau...mcm larh pompan nk kn dier sangat...pompan2 bodoh jer yg tkder mater yg nk kn korg mcm pompan 5 ekor 2...den e girls sae 2dae dat actuali dey vote 'no' 4 e punishment bcos its their own choice n not dey listen 2 e guys...wat an excuse...stupid reasons...u wanna noe wat...ur reasons n excuses n oll dat s2upid ting cn b thrown @ e garbage bin larh...s2pid hell...u donoe rite dat we had actuali help u all...we noe dat u alll dowan 2 du it den we oredi help u all but den u donoe how 2 appreciate it siak...wat seh u all u rili make mi n mie other malay gurl-fwens sad u noe..u noe yesterdae i cry in class bcos of dat...den in bus mie mind was lyk in other places...luckili i didnt stop at e wrong place or i will lost...den dat nite i got flu den mie left eye get sore eyes...n its rili dificult 4 mi 2 slip dat nite...not bcos dat i watch a horror movie b4 dat but i was tinkin bout our class..u noe we had embarassed ourself in front of evri1 during last year's cheering comp...den our class got many cases oredi...den if we didnt go cheering comp 4 dis year, ppl will tink dat our class is full of losers...n wats more...oll those boys at our class bukan dorg tau sangat main bola...dey just play it anihow...pls larh u oll try 2 understand us..n how we feel, ok...just in class practice olso u oll du it lyk not sincere....

2007-04-22T18:24:00.000+08:00

a big HELLO 2 evri bodi!!!! at last mie pc is ok n i can go back updating mie blog!!!!! hehe....n i cn du wat i lyk most which is chatting.....ok lah i donoe wat 2 rite animore so....GOODBYE!!!!

2007-03-17T20:16:00.000+08:00

yesterdae [16032007] is e dae dat oll e UGs went home after a tiring daes of camp...lyk mi, tired, pain, lack of energy, bloated, tanned n smelly....of course tired n lack of energy as we [referin 2 e NPs onli] use up olmost oll of our energy 4 e camp..we need 2 run, do drills, plae games, go 2 our bunks [girls squad bunks on e 4th floor], climb e stairs....pain cos we run run run till leg pain...sprain ankle...den olso stomach pain...muscle pain....need 2 endure oll dis....but its veri fun....NP is not onli bout discipline larh...maeb disciplin is e most important in NP but in NP its not oll bout discipline...we need 2 have sense of emergency dats y our mie leg pain as we need 2 run...but it does not matter 2 mi as i LOIKE 2 run..its fun man...den smelly cos we oll sweat2 lyk non-stop lyk dat...lagi2 aku...im easy 2 sweat...panas sikit jer mesti berpeluh...i olso donoe y....hais... On e 1st dae, we get into our groups as we arrive...i came a lil bit late cos traffic jam...den i fall-in larh with mie group....mie group is GROUP 1 ALJUNIED...mie grp nickname it 4 short as JUNI...kiut name....den i 4get...cos dae 1 is not so fun i tink....at nite onli syiok...at nite wen goin 2 slip zac tak bwk dier punyer slipin bag so share wif mi...den wen evribodi slip oredi n onli omai n i stil awake...den we tok2 which *** we lyk...ain olso join but shi go slip 1st...but den i canot go slip cos OMAI snore loudly at mie ear den i wake her up 2 turn n face e other side larh...den i can slip but den omai canot slip cos i snore...i donoe dat i snore cos slipin ppl donoe if dey snore or not...but i don mind cos im tired n i noe tired ppl snore...not onli omai n mi snore...olmost evribodi in our bunks snore....den dae 2 is much more fun den dae 1 cos we get 2 du many tings...we teach e sec 1s drills...i canot stand dem....olwaes 1 2 slack haiyo....den i got stress up n let izyan teach dem oll...den we need 2 make our own structure using bamboo pole, spar(not sure of e spelling), twines n rope...den we plae war games after we change into our pe attire...grp1-4 plae war games n grp5-8 plae water games...actuali im lukin 4ward 2 plae water game...cos its a hot dae so if plae water game it wil b cooler...n ader reasons2 yg tertentu....canot say....den sudenli it started 2 rain n i canot plae water game...ITS NOT FAIR!!!!!!.....den we need 2 go wash up cos e ppl hu plae water game sumer kotor kene mud...diar faces was decorated wif muds n leaves....den after washin up we fall in n we wait till our dinner tym....after dinner...our IC ask us 2 bring down our poncho n torchlight den fallin back....den we go 2 e sec 1 boys squad bunks 2 have a final preparation 4 e campfire...den its CAMPFIRE TIME yippeee!!!!!!!!!!!.....we r e 3rd grp 2 perform our skit....n oh no i feel butterflies in mie stomach......we perform quite well...n lukili wei yue rimember wat hi supposed 2 sae s hi is 4getful...but i tink hi improve alot on dae 2 n 3....but kesian izyan shi has lost her voice...shi have soar throat n cant shout n shi cant b e narrator wich shi suppose 2...n wi change plan n make kian cheong b e narrator n izyan took kian cheong's place in e skit...n e campfire go on well wif some games n cheers n songs........dat nite i can slip well iven doh snorin sounds evriwer in e rooms......n at last e last dae...e dae dat evribodi have beeen waitin 4.....on dat dae we have 2 clean up our bunks, canteen, toilet but i just clean e bunks n canteen cos grp1-4 onli need 2 clean canteen n grp 5-8 clean e toilet.....as 4 e bunks evribodi cleans it.....den sec 2 squad need 2 change 2 full u....e IC gave us onli 20 min 2 change n guess wat it is e 1st tym wi change into our uniform fast....we onli change 4 15 min.....whoa so proud of mie squadmates...but not so much a lil onli...den after change fallin den stand under e sun 4 bout less den 30 mins n we receive our 'lance copral' n we olso receive our 'campcraft badge'.....den at last we get 2 go home....i feel lyk wan 2 stae der....i lyk campin n lukili in this cumin june holidae wi have anoder camp....YIPPEEE!!!!!!!!!.......

2007-03-12T14:43:00.000+08:00

2 more daes den UG CAMP oredi...BUT i got a problem...aiyoyo wat sey 2 more daes den problem cum...den l8r wen camp leceh seh..nid go toilet olwaes...haiz...susah seh mcm gini....mcm lepas camp tk blh gitu tapi aper nk uat darh time dier...aha 2dae [1203] is OMAI's b'dae..haven wish her hapi b'dae yet...maeb l8r larh if gt time...eh wit i tink i 4get her number...ouh yar i rimember...its 676*****...wat seh actuali 2dae go npcc barbecue den cancell...aper seh..tk fair...wen mie mother let mi go den don hav larh cancell larh..den l8r biler btl2 ader den mie mother dint allow mi 2 go...haiyo...den 2moro nid go skool 4 e np UG CAMP [GRP 1 ONLI]...den lukili i no nid 2 go 2 e art werkshop...boring seh art werkshop...i wanna go there get points onli n make e chicher api den donoe wat 2 du...haiz...mie bro donoe wats wrong wif him sudenli listen 2 jiwang song...last time wen i listen 2 jiwang song hi sae mepek larh...eeee larh...yucks larh....wueks larh...den now hi listen 2 e jiwang song dat i lyk olso...e song janjiku sang by sofaz malaysian band...but e song an indonesian composer compose it...den many ppl tot its indon band sing dat song paderhal si sofaz 2 yg nyani lagu 2...den wat i wanna rite ehk i olso 4get seh...ah i cant wait 4 e UG CAMP...2 more daes 2 wait...maeb 2moro den pack bag...mie blue np water bottle e cap break donoe wat hapen...i tel mie sec 4 mem den dey du nutin den i go tell mie sec 4 sir den hi go help mi 2 get replace water bottle...but donoe wen can get..I NEED MY WATER BOTTLE BEFORE THE UNIFORM GROUP CAMP!!!!!..

2007-03-08T19:15:00.000+08:00

yesterdae go 2 NEWater Visitor Center..go der 4 IPW project..look at water..play water..take pic with water..drink water..learn bout water..oll bout water..n dat is e 1st time i went der..siriesli e first tym i went there..quite fun larh cos evriwer go got water rite..we go der wif class 207...veri long journey 2 arrived der..biler darh spi..we took sum picx..dat tym i rili in e mood of takin picx...so take ppic hier take pic der take pic evriwer...den e chicher sebok ask us 2 stop n went into e buildin...e buildin was lyk SO DAMN BIG..e 1st place we go is e donoe wat place larh..need 2 sit on e floor den watch e screen den next stop need 2 go 2 a place lyk cinema lyk dat olso VERI DAMN BIG...den watch sumtin bout water..oll dey show is ppl drinkin water..den next stop we go 2 a place dat we nid 2 sit on e floor again but e carpet dat cover e whole ting is so DAMN SOFT...sit der till canot n dowan 2 stand up seh..den e guide name rozi or wat sae ulu pandan larh wat larh..den omai change it 2 'bulu pandan' den i change it 2 'bulu panjang'...du u get it???...no/yes...yes/no...den sudenli lyk e curtain tingy open den got lyk many2 electrical stuffs lyk games lyk dat larh...den we take loads n loads pf picx...den go toilet SO DAMN CLEAN lyk nobodi go der b4..den again take pic again in e "clean" toilet..den omai n ain press e auto button 4 e door n dey terpranjat sendiri...den dey kip presin it lyk bout 2 or 3 or 4 tyms lyk dat..den go out of toilet n take pic again but no tym cos e rozi sae go 2 next place n got onli limited spaces...so we oll run 2 dat place..n u noe wat..sins its onli limited sofas n onli dos hu r fast cant sit on e sofa..we oll run der n guess wat..no nobodi falls..nobody injured..not e sofas spoilt BUT i jump onto e sofa just 2 get 2 sit on e sofa..isn't pathetic...ohh but hu cares..im sick n tired of sitin on e floor so i jump on e sofa larh till i get e sit..hehe..den hazirah,mus,zac,omai,ain,farah larf at mi seh..den i olso larf at mieself larh..u wanna noe y i jump..cos i wanna stretch mie leg larh but den mie leg short wat den i step on e sofa n jump on it..gr8 idea rite..i don tink so..den next stop go 2 e place dat got water underneath e transparent floor..den e rozi ask 4 1 volunteer 2 du e cat walk den 1 of e 207s..4gat e name..e 1 hu olwaes tok crap n olwaes sae OH MY GOD..ah e dat 1..hi du e catwalk n zirah video it in her hp..den next stop e factory..e factory is BORING...donoe wat 2 rite bout it..but dat Rozi coll us lil' molecules u noe...den nid 2 pass thru' e donoe wat ting larh..den factory sumore n again n again n anoder factory n we at e next stop..we nid 2 sit on e floor again n rozi nid 3 volunteer again..n nesrine n donoe hu n donoe hu go infront n rite msg on dat sumtin..n we came 2 e finale dat we nid 2 turn n face e screen n hear donoe wat msg bout NEWater n ol dat n we can go out of dat place...we went out n we wait 4 our bus..e 207s go home oredi..but nvm we can take loads n loads of picx...pic hier pic der pic evriwer..wi du pose..we pose hier pose der pose evriwer n e bus cum...at bus olso hear mie mp3 omai fav song..n take vid n take pic of sleepin ppl n hear wan ting sing n we arrived..den e MR ONG nutin 2 du go hit mie hair clip lyk olwaes hi du to mi..nutin 2 du sae hi hit mie head onli..bapak aku bayar fitrah tau..lol..okies larh mie bro arh..canot wait oredi..2moro can use hi dowan cos i wanna use..lolx..no chance 4 him.. lol lyk real...lyk dat...ok (nesrine style) toodles!!!

2007-03-03T21:45:00.000+08:00

yesterdae drg npcc we have 'games day'.we create our own squad cheer.actuali lovell create e cheer on our way 2 e road safety park.but yesterdae we hav 2 edit his cheer as we 4get how his cheer sounds lyk n olso e worst ting was lovell was not around yesterdae cos he go 2 HQ 2 practice sumting wif other np members.den terpakser we crack our brains (????) 2 find words that rhymes wif e last werd 4 e ferst sentence as we onli rimember e 1st n 2nd sentence of e cheer.lukili dat tym mie brain is usful n nt blurr2 animore lyk usual n i tell dem mie ideas..den ain,maeb omai,maeb umai,maeb mus n maeb zac olso giv out sum ideas.den our mem veri 'leceh' wan our cheer 2 include wif kiut-lil-tiny-winy(mie fav phrase)dance..den lukili we no need 2 dance cos e game start oredi..lucky seh..or we will embarass ourself.den cheer cheer cheer.n i shout shout shout lyk hell but nvm larh cos i lyk 2 shout since baby2 oredi..serve dem rite 2 dos dat stand near 2 mi wen i shout or scream.blh pekak tlinger dorg..lolxx..den we play e games.veri fun.at last e sec 2 np squad win e most n2 squad.den sec 1 squad i 4get.den sec 3 squad get overall..iven doh wi olwaes nid 2 run til mie ankle pain.

2007-02-24T19:03:00.000+08:00

its scarie...outside mie house, at mie corridor near the staircase there is a pelisit..it is a belalang in malay n grasshopper in english..its lyk no ordinary grasshopper wich usuali hav kinda brownish-green (dat i call breen) kind of colour..dis grasshopper hav a colour of leaf-green colour..i donoe if its true or nt but mie nenek sae lyk dat mie dad olso sae lyk dat..its lyk e incredible tales story of the nurin den got her auntie dat nazak olredi but canot die cos shi hav 2 pass dis ting 2 1 of her famili members..den dis nurin donoe anitin jus sae YES den e ghost dat her aunt kip was passed 2 her..den at last e muslim medium came 2 her rescue by saein sum prayers 2 let e ghost out of her body..den e ghost came out 4rm her body n bcum a no usual grasshopper but a pelisit..i donoe if e spelling is rite larh but dis is how mie bro spell it 4 mi..

2007-02-19T21:31:00.000+08:00

wen i was lukin tru e imvu catalog..i saw dis pic n it reminds mi of e emo guy dat i saw in e bus a few weeks ago..wit his piercin n oll dat..oll of em is similar 2 e emo guy..but not most of his face larh dat r similar..but olmos oll of em..

2007-02-02T20:47:00.000+08:00

2dae i go home in e same bus wit a emo guy..emo means e emo punk tingy..bt emo punk is type of song larh..not emo-ticons, emo-tional,emo-wateva..its not dat its emo guy..i lyk emo punk songs..so i lyk bein a emo babe..not dude okies..now i wan 2 continue 2 search 4 emo punk clothings okies buhbie..tatatititutu..tatitu..ha btwe e emo guy e face veri kiut his fwen olso..but nt emo larh his fwen hair like mohawk lyk dat...ah 1 more ting..i njoy goin 2 e marshall tingy at easy cost der..i tink its col road safety arh if i not wrong..den 1 of mie fwen ask a guy i col him 'abg hitam'(hi got dark skin wat. i olmos canot sii his face) 4 his msn den hi giv..den mie np fwen(i 4got his name arh his nick 'KC' dat 1 onli i rimember..lol) pasin2 e paper lorhx den i add him..veri fun2 so many fans wan 2 get mie autographs..lol..popular marhxs..btw oll mie fans pri 5 onli..wah veri bz dae sae..okies larh till hier i wan 2 continue searchin 4 emo punk clothings..toodles..ah 1 mor ting haha alang sick akisyen lagi..padan muker kao..mentang2 dier jadi prefect n aku tk..lol..okies larh till hier..siriesli bye..eh gt 1 mor ting 2 sae i olmos 4got..n dat is..gudnite hav a swit n pleasent drim..n drim of mi okies..wuekxs..i wanna puke..tata toodles gudbye..i lurv u oll..lol haha hehe ha he evritin larh..=P =* B)

2007-01-31T17:13:00.001+08:00

i veri api 2 noe dat mie nitemare is over..cos dat bdk prasan darh stead..hahaha veri api..hi stead wit bdk skirt senget..lol veri sesuai wit each other..at last hi gt gf lyk wat i hav bin waitin 4..hi rili prasan seh..eeeee geli i..ok larh stop tokin bout him oredi..mie hand rili rili rili rili rili gatal u noe..tak tau dok diam..mie tag box dat yili tarok kn kt cni pon darh ilang cos of mie itchy hands..now nid 2 ask ain 4 help aiyoyo..ok larh till hier..abg aku darh tk sabar nk pki com padehal smlm ngan tadi dier darh pki..mentang2 dier nga 2ngu "o" level dier nyer results..hmm aper larh aku nk uat ngan dier..haish cumer kene stop pki com den dier senyap sikit or dier jln saner jln sini tak tau diam..mcm monyet kene belacan..jgm marah mus aku ckp psl monyet..muahahaha..

2007-01-31T17:02:00.000+08:00

tank u ain 4 tarok kn tag box 4 mi..appreciate it many many..btw don 4 get 2 gimmi testi..aha nie utk org2 yg utang aku testi..maner korg biler nk kasi testi..aku darh lost patience tau..ari2 aku suroh kasi testi tapi korg tk kasi2 ehk..aper seh korg..kalo tk nk kasi ckp jer larh..nie korg suroh aku 2ngu plk..korg btl2 disapoin mi seh..sob sob..

2007-01-27T22:25:00.000+08:00

ok tanx 2 yili 4 editin mie backgrd 4 mi yar..rili appricite it..bt wen i ask u hw 2 du it cos i wanna tri 2 edit mieslf..u sae u donoe hw 2 xplain..haish..wat seh u..hmm..nvm larh at list u noe hw 2 change e backgrd n put e tag box 4 mi ehk..tankis veri much..lurv u muackies..

2007-01-27T21:52:00.000+08:00

u noe dat i don lyk anibodi sae dat im step jambu larh act kiut larh act pwiti larh..den u can still sae dat..wat sae..i rili cant accept it seh..u noe wat hapen rite wen dat mr jack tan chicher sae i act pwiti..nw i rili hate him sia..weneva i c him i olwaes wanna puke..but sins u r mie fwen den i tink i jus luperkn ajer larh psl bender nie sumer..

2007-01-23T17:10:00.000+08:00

lol fani seh ari nie..ader 1 bdk sec 1 kerek kene kco..tknk arh blg namer dier..bdk nie dier in e same house as me colour blue..haha after meetin 2 mus zirah tel mi dat her skirt senget ngan tk tau fold skirt..den dier blg mus plk..den mus darh surer rocker lagi nk ketawer ngan pekik2..dier ckp tktau fold nk fold..haha u wil larf if u hear her shoutin n oll dat..abe kitorg macam ckp2 behind her back arh..yg palng trk mus..lol..suarer dier whoa merdu seh..haha..abe skali darh dkt ngan bdk 2 dier ckp arh..eh bdk skirt senget..abe lagi si bdk 2 maseh blh btl2kn lagi skirt dier..lagi ronyok arh..abe aku mus+zirah+omai+fara+ain+zac sumer ketawerkn dier..haha veri farni..den 4rm dat tym onwards wi col her "BDK SKIRT SENGET"..lol...

2007-01-23T16:25:00.000+08:00

ok 2dae i wanna rite bout lurv n oll dat..2 dos gurls out der!! if u hav a crush, tel ur crush dat u lyk him..u noe y cos at last u will regret it..tokin in xpereance i had faced oll of dis n im sure u oll olso rite?? so tel him dat u lyk him..i noe dat maeb u feel shy n u wan e guys 2 take e 1st step rite??dat is olso wat im olwaes hopin 4 bt sumtimes e guys olso hoping 4 oll e gurls 2 take e 1st step..ok let mi tell u oll sumtin..its lyk a story 2 mi n its a lil bit boring..so hier i go...... i hav a crush since sec 1 in mie skool..hi is 1 yr older den mi..weneva i c him, i olwaes gets nervous sutimes xcited..sumtimes i tink dat im crazie..bt nw, hi oredi hav a gf..im so dissapointd in mieself..bt wat 2 du..its oll fate rite?? bt nw im hapi 4 him arh cos at lis hi gt a pertner rite..n wat bout mi???i olso donoe lerhx..

HELP ME!!!

2007-01-22T21:38:00.000+08:00

AARGGH!!! I NEED HELP!!!SOMEONE CAN HELP ME??? HUH??HUH??HUH?? AIYO PLEASE LARH HELP ME!!!I REALLY NEED HELP!!! CAN SOMEONE TELL ME HOW TO PUT THE TAG BOX??? I AM CONFUSED NOW!!! AARGGH!!!

oll bout alang..

2007-01-20T23:18:00.000+08:00

2dae i go 2 du art project..1st i meet farah+mus at lot 1 wif mie sis munirah or irah or aka alang @ lot 1 + wi met farhan+fahmi..den wi go 2 zac's house 2 du our project..after dat wi realised dat her computer canot werk properli so wi go 2 mus house 2 finished up e art project bout dis artist..his name is andy warhol..his face veri e like wat seh..wi wen back 2 lot 1 2 buy lunch + wi met asyraaf+yusuf+meiling+donoe larh i 4get her name..wen our project finish, wi go surf love calculator..wi calculate3 den wen its alang nyer tern wif "him" (onli mi+mie fwens noe "him" larh) dey gt e highest percentage wich is 95%..alang hapi larh until shi eat her currypuff dat shi buy @ lot 1 so slow..aper ntah dier pikir aku pon tk tau..haizz..aber at e end dier tk abes mkn currypuff dier..luckili dat tym i fil hungry so i eat it larh..abe lepas 2 biler darh spi kt bus-stop, dier aru tringat yg dier trtingal wallet dier kt uma mus..veri bodoh seh dier..den shi tuduh mi 4 nt kip it 4 her..after dat wi go back 2 mus house larh 2 take her wallet..dat tym farah darh balek dulu..haiz wat a dae..till hier larh i wan 2 go slip oredi..veri slipi oredi..buai2..

2007-01-19T20:55:00.000+08:00

harlow!! whoa dis is mie FERST tym blogging..i stil donoe hw 2 du dis+dat..n i hope dat u ol l yg darh seasoned ngan sumer nie can help mi wokai?? stil gt lot 2 du wif mie blog..nk 2kar backgrnd tapi tk tau kt maner..tlg mi if im in doubt ehk, tankies..