27 July 2010
it has been nearly a month since the last time i post. i am actually lazy to on the laptop. im sorry for my english mistakes today. i can assure you that there will be a lot of errors on my english for this post. anyways, i've been thinking. why do some guys do things that they don't sometimes dont mean them. i really have to stop comparing real guys with guys from books i read. of course guys from books are perfect because they're fiction.
anyways my best friend have a boyfriend and i just know about it today. maybe she forgot to tell me. or maybe they just got together today. i dont know. i wanted to ask her for details but she was tired and sleepy. so i decided not to bug her and will ask her next time. it is so hard to meet her now. with her currently in poly & i with my o levels are near. ony left with less than hundred days to prepare now.
oh my god i am feeling so depressed right now. i really need to be hugged really badly now. im not gonna cry, dont worry. im just tired i think. by the way, i read my friend's blog just now and was pissed off with what he wrote. how can he say things like that to people who are once his friends. "puny feeble minds"? what a fucking asshole dickhead! he said more bad things than that actually but i just dont remember what. i dont wanna remember even. they only pollute my mind more. i dont want any of my system to be polluted. at all. but thats impossible, i know. anyways anyways, my big brother want me to help him make my marshmellow choco bars for his girl friend. i said i would help him only if he do most of the work of course. because he will say that he made the choco bars himself. that's why, instead of lying to his lady, i rather let him do most of the work & let him telling the truth.
dammit very much i still need a hug. i thought it will soon vanish & disappear but no.
i'll go to school tomorrow, since the cramp i had had this morning is no more. goodnight now & sweet drems to you ;)
@Tuesday, July 27, 2010
